I sometimes hold it half a sin
To put in words the grief I feel:
For words, like Nature, half reveal
And half conceal the Soul within.

But, for the unquiet heart and brain,
A use in measured language lies;
The sad mechanic exercise,
Like dull narcotics, numbing pain.

In words, like weeds, I'll wrap me o'er,
Like coarsest clothes against the cold;
But that large grief which these enfold
Is given outline and no more.

~Tennyson

Wah wah wah, blah blah blah, this is an explicit post so if you don't like the words 'fuck' 'cunt' or 'twat' you need not read on.

So I'm home now, I suck at blogging, and love you all for your sweet, awesome, great, amazing comments.

I seriously do promise that I will do a good fashion/style post soon, but right now I am in rather a slump- I've been dressing, as a good friend puts it, like a confused old lady who wears her underwear outside of her clothes. In other words I've been living in layered slips and slouchy sweaters. I've been completely comfy and feel rather cute, just not very motivated.

So instead of the art of clothing I am going to do a post on the art of cupcakes. 

These are all from flickr, but I don't remember who's so sorry for not giving you credit.

OH EM GEE. Totoro cupcakes. AHHH I LOVE!

Pirates and Ninjas

Skulls. They remind me of Dia de los Muertos. One of my fave holidays.

Bustier cupcake!

Corn on the cob cupcakes! Yummy!

And these are the product of the inspiration of the above cupcakes. I told you it was explicit. Hah.

If you need a reason

Today is my last day in New York City. I am emotionally drained and sad. I am going to walk around and enjoy the incredible weather. Please send good thoughts my way, I'm feeling rather low, and quite upset about this change. 

I know that I have so much to look forward do, but I am so so so sad to not be going back to school this year. Apologies for being so repetitive about this, but it's really all I can think about.

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Drunken Stupor

mmmmm this is how I'm feeling. It's surprising that I'm feeling at all since I'm incredibly un-sober at the moment...but whatevs right?

Surprises

My friends are the BEST in the world. I came to school last night to (I thought) just chill with everyone, and I walked into a surprise going away party!!
How fucking awesome is that/ are they?? I had the best night I've had in a long time.
They even got me presents, and made me a playlist of my favorite music, and baked me cupcakes.

I LOVE THEM!!!!

I also love you all for saying funny things to me about my tattoo/loving it. I love it. And you.

Now on to business. Mila from Loveology tagged me about a million years ago, and I am finally doing it. Yay.

The last three things I purchased:
1. A fucking kick ass shearling fur hat.
2. A tattoo of an avocado
3. A pair of sort of amazing steve madden brown leather boots with heels.


I like fur, so shoot me.

The last three songs I downloaded:
1. "Stronger"- Kanye feat. Daft Punk
2. "I love you and Buddha too"- Mason Jennings
3. "Creeper"- Islands



The last three places I've visited:
1. Charlottesville, Virginia
2. Sarah Lawrence College
3. Coney Island.



Three of my favorite movies are:
1. The Unbearable Lightness of Being
2. Lucia y el Sexo
3. Amelie



Three of my favorite possessions are:
1. My laptop. I even named her, I love her so much. Her name is Minerva.
2. My jewelry (it counts as one...jewelry is singular...shut up, I'm cheating ok?)
3. My grey striped scarf that was bought in Germany by my Omi, given to my aunt Lori, somehow passed to my mom, used as a tablecloth, then scooped up by me, only to be left somewhere on an Amtrak train, or possibly in the living room of one of my various relatives. I miss it.




Three things I cannot live without:
1. water
2. food
3. oxygen
I think this is a silly question. The phrasing at least is silly. The things I would not care to live without are as follows: my clothing, my sewing kit, and electricity


cupcakes count as food...

Three things I have not done yet:
1. Gone to Eastern Europe.
2. Become a famous fashion anarchist
3. Created a shrine to the various goddesses that I love



Three of my favorite dishes are:
1. Spoons
2. Teacups & saucers with mismatched floral patterns
3. Fondue forks
(I know this was meant to be my favorite food dishes, but it's more fun this way)




The three celebrities I want to hang out with the most are:
1. Natalie Portman
2. James Franco
3. Obama



Three unusual things I am good at:
1. Being honest
2. Making omlettes
3. I read really quickly



Three things that I am coveting are:
1. A more lithe, fit body
2. Everything in Queen Michelle's closet
3. Some seriously studded heels/boots/flats/anything (OH AND CHIFFON!!!)



I'm skipping the tagging part, because I suck at choosing, and I want anyone who wants to do it to do it!

I lurve you all, mucho mucho mucho.

Happiness is a warm gun, yes it is

I AM INSANE. And this is my new tattoo.

And upon request, here is the explanation behind it: I have always found avocados to be very sexy- some people think strawberries are sexy, some think cherries are sexy, I'm weird and think avocados are. To me it represents love, beauty, and sensuality, all things that I value in myself and others.  'Avocado' was also one of my first words/favorite foods, and I'm crazy enough to get it tattooed to the front of my shoulder just because I'm fucking crazy. 

LOVES to you ALL!!!!!!

p.s. thank you all so much for the uplifting, sweet, and cute comments.  they really make me smile, and it's so nice to know that there are people all across the world that are thinking about me-even if it's just enough to tell me to smile. now enough of the sappiness, let's go have some MATÉ!

Addict

I'm still alive, love you all, and am doing better. Also, I am SO addicted to maté. In the past two days I have consumed approximately 14 thousand iced maté lattes. MMMMMM.

cute cute photo cred goes to veronicatm on flickr