Truth, not dare

I've been tagged by so many sweethearts it's hard for me to keep them all straight.

If I miss anyone's tag, I do apologize.

I will start with the one from the gorgeous and wonderful Mila, and the drifter and the gypsy...

This is the honest scrap award- a tag where I have to write ten honest things about myself.

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2. Sex has given me a much better self image.

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3. I am much more prone to falling in love with men I have no possibility of being with rather than the ones that are obtainable.

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4. I am terrified of the dark.

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5. Sometimes I am terribly vain, and other times I hate the way I look and avoid every mirror in my house.

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6. Sometimes I make really stupid decisions, and choose not to regret them.

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7. I am not afraid of dying, but I am terribly, horribly afraid of being dead.

(sorry- I can't remember the source for this one- it's been on my computer for ages...)

8. One of my wishes in life is to be somebody's muse. I wish, so deeply, to be able to inspire someone purely with the fact of my existence.

(mine)

9. I am terrible at keeping my thoughts to myself. I am an incredibly open person, and probably usually tell people far too much more than they ever wanted to know (see honesty number one...)

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10. I try so hard to believe in fairies.

(again I had this saved to my computer and don't know the source...)

I am passing this award to...

Laura

Hrose

BlueRing

Betsey

Jess

Lottie

Next is an amazing tag from sweet and beautiful Betsey...

1. go to the fourth folder on your computer where you store your pictures

2. pick the fourth picture in that folder.

3. explain the picture.
4. tag four people to do the same:

This is a polaroid I took while walking from campus to the train station in Bronxville last spring. The garden was just so sunshiny and wonderful I couldn't resist.

And I now tag...

Hannah

Lisa

SB

Autumn

I feel like I have been given another award, or that I am missing some beautiful gift some beautiful blogger has given me...but I cannot seem to find what, so I think this is it. 

I love you all, and wish happiness on you. 

Autumn in winter

My friend Autumn is very talented. (she also cuts my hair)

This is some of her art (which is also an excuse to post a lot of photos of me. When I had long hair. A long time ago.):

(she made this one especially for me ♥)

You should look at her blog. And befriend her, because she'll most likely love you. She's that sort of person.

♥ ♥ I love you all ♥ ♥

Merry Christmas!

My Christmas-y season has been looking like this...

...tea and gingerbread from the sweetest little cup and saucer given to me as an early Christmas present from my best friend in the universe...

...Christmas parties with sweaters and lots of rum...

...paper snowflakes hung from my kitchen ceiling...

...debuting the sweet chiffon dress I made...

...bare legs despite the two feet of snow outside of my front door...

...and Christmas eve outfits...

Run, run, stand still

I've been gone again. 

Life is getting in the way of blogging. Fucked up right?

Anyway, it's so so so snowy, and I am snowed in at a friend's house, trying to figure out how to make it home for Christmas.

Really the situation is altogether lovely, and relaxing, and sort of magical.

I've been given a lot of awards, and tagged a bit, but I have not gone through and sorted them all out yet- but don't worry! that post is coming soon.

I love you all and do, do miss you.

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Aren't these pretty?

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My heart, it seems, is an insensible creature. 

It loves without discretion,

it becomes jealous without discretion,

it breaks without discretion.

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(mine. click to see its intricacies.)

I want to love, I want my heart to enfold everything, everyone.

But if I accept that it will do that, which I can't keep it from doing, everything hurts.

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(mine. click to see its subtleties.)

There seems to be a fine line between love and pain,

a glass wall, a fragile boundary, 

one that too often in my life is broken.

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(mine. click to see its detail.)

How does one love without hurting? 

Is it possible?

Ice Princess

I'm doing another post today.

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I got dressed today pretending I was an ice princess. A russian ice princess. Who never ever had to go outside into the snow if she didn't want to, and who loved to make art and have exotic plants in her boudoir. All she ever has to do is make beautiful things and take photos and wear extravagant hats.

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All day long she drew beautiful pictures for her mother, the queen.

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(all photos and drawings by me)