Monday, April 27, 2009

I just turned 20 two weeks ago, and I have never felt more unsure and lost in my life.

I'm usually so determined, but now I feel as if I'm floating.

Drifting without aim.

I cannot be decisive about my future, 

I cannot even be decisive about my present. 

I am frustrated. 

I feel weak.

But I'm happy too.

It's confusing, conflicting, infuriating.

Perhaps there is just a time to be indecisive, perhaps I am just learning more about myself...

Things that I would never know were it not for this sort of time.

Perhaps it won't last, although it feels like forever in both directions....