Thank you all for your wonderful words.
You really encouraged me, and things are looking much better now.
I have been enjoying sunshine, and friends, and loves, and listening to electronica and reggae really loudly in the car with the windows down on the way to parties and picnics.
Parties that look like this:
And picnics that look like this:
All I want now is for it to be summer, and to be dressed in this outfit: